Friday, May 20, 2011

The 30 Day Challenge - The Next 6 Days

Well, I've made it through 12 days!  I've been perfect through 12 and haven't succumbed to any urge to have a sip of alcohol.  It hasn't been easy the whole time though.  As a matter of fact, the journey has been the complete opposite of what I thought it would be.  I thought that the first week would be the toughest since I would have to get out of my routine of having a drink when I got home from work or went out for dinner.  It really wasn't.  I thought that as the days went by that not drinking would get easier.  It hasn't.  It's gotten harder.

I've been on the road for a week now.  I had to work a trade show and then hit the road driving from Boston to Albany, Syracuse, Rochester, Lockport, and Buffalo, New York.  Here are some observations over the past 6 days:
  • Even though I'm not drinking, I still manage to meet interesting people at the bar when I go out to dinner and engage in hilarious conversations with them.
  • Driving home at midnight completely sober is really strange.  The whole time I'm thinking, "I really don't feel much different than I do after a few drinks.  What if I get pulled over for some reason?  Will the officer think I've been drinking?"  It's pretty comical that the paranoia is still there.
  • People have been real supportive of my quest.  I really haven't faced much peer pressure. 
  • At the same time, when people learn that I'm not drinking it seems to cue up a response of, "Oh yeah, I've done that before." Most of the times I don't know whether to believe them or if it's just something they say to feel better about themselves.
  • I had my first O'Doul's last night!  It really wasn't that bad but I couldn't have more than two.  Only reason I had one was because I stopped at a friend's charity event and she was working so I was on my own and there were no seats at the bar.  I didn't know what to do with myself hahaha.  I saw someone drinking an O'Doul's and figured I'd give it a shot. 
  • O'Doul's is great when you want the flavor of beer without the alcohol and don't feel like waiting until the next morning for the beer farts to kick in.  
  • I've noticed that I like something sweet after dinner now.  Maybe a cookie or an ice cream.  I never used to do that and instead had a bourbon.  I like the old way better as it doesn't make me feel even more full and helps digest.
  • Club soda with a little lime or lemon is actually pretty good even though it doesn't really quench my thirst much.
So, I'm now 40% of the way through my 30 day challenge!  I have to admit, last night I was having doubts on whether or not I could make it all the way to the end.  I miss bourbon so much it hurts.  I sat at the bar having dinner looking at the bottles of Maker's Mark and Knob Creek behind the bar and it was hard.  I pictured myself giving up at some point along the way, right around Memorial Day.  You know what though?  I won't give up or give in.  I got willpower like that.  Plus, I would rather suffer through not drinking for 30 days than listen to people talk shit to me about how I couldn't do it.  Today is day 13 - 18 days left and I am free to have a bourbon again!


Rick said...

Keep it up, Steve O. It's good to clean out the system every now and then. Even better to make moderation the habit.

Good luck to you!


SteveBM said...

Thanks, Rick. I appreciate it. Moderation after the 30 days is the next plan. Looking back at it, I wish I'd just challenged myself to not drinking during the week...haha.

The Chowfather said...

Did you do a pre weigh in? Any drop in lbs? )not that u need too asking for my own good)

ChadC said...

Good luck. I think it's crazy talk, but good luck. Do what you need to do.

Mandy Baca said...

That's totally happened to me before too: Driving home sober, in my head I'm like: "Do it cops, come on, I dare you. Pull me over. I'll pass your sobriety test." It's a bit strange how the paranoia still stays that you're going to get pulled over.

SteveBM said...

@Chowfather - I did a weigh-in on day 4 (my neighbor has a scale and was out of town). I'm hoping I have shed some pounds but I'm not optimistic about it. Will be interesting to see. It's now day 16 so maybe I'll do a mid-challenge weigh-in to see if anything has changed.

@Chad - yes, batshit crazy but not a bad thing

@Mandy - I totally want to get pulled over to prove sobriety after midnight but at the same time I could do without a moving violation...